Me and my desires. I wasnt wrong when I kept ‘Untamed Desires’ as my blog-name. Thats everything I revolve around. Only, you can’t understand that. Did you even try to?

What was the word I had used? “Addiction”. Yeah, addiction. Addicted to you. But you had said the same. My bad, why did I trust Me and my Untmaed Desires. I will someday drown myself becuase of me.

But not becuase of you! Nopes. I knew this was coming. Just hoped, that the inevitable could be delayed. For a few more hours. A few more chat-hours. A few more email swaps. A few more smiles, A few more hours of blissful happiness. A few more hours fo missing you, and infact not missing you cause you were here.

I cannot lie. It is not me. And if you cannot take me ‘the way I are’, then I cannot change for you either. Ain’t the done thing for me. And, you judged me, for something that was not my fault. Knowing me for such a long time didn’t help, did it? You just judged one act, done so so so long ago that I had even forgotten it.

So what now? The restraint is already there. From across the miles, I can feel it. You really pulled me out of my shell. Dragged me out, challenging me to smile again n I did. I owe alot to you. I won’t tell you that I am disappointed. Not hurt, just disappointed. The hurt will come later. But I dont want to be bothered right now. I want to close my eyes and pretend nothing happened. Do let me do that. Let hope live, its desperate in here!!